Back Then…

Back then when in love I longed for a pair of hands
Ached for those hands to gently fondle my  dried tears
that sprang from the immaterial source, due to intense
dolour, dejection and despondence that lasted for decades.

Back then when in grief, I panted for breath, fresh and gay
for those unspoken strings to let out a huge stream of sighs,
to melt down the heaviness into threads of wool waving 
softly, in the gasp and then colour those with the golden paint of beatitude. 

Back then when in distress, I yearned for a divine soul
In person to transmogrify my sorrowful grudge into 
petals of butter rose, worn but true, pure but less aromatic,
and then inquire that personified love to hold those petals from falling. 

Now often, I wish those worn bits  of sentiments to return to me,
Just to complete my womanhood and metamorphose me 
into a New Woman with the same Heart!

My Experiments with a Professional Satire

Character shaming a certain character who is worse than Brutus and Cassius put together is no sin: This is the norm I carry throughout my write-up as the character I am going to focus on, deserves nothing more than that. Well, though it is a second hand personal experience, I thought I better narrate it as a story, so that the person may not directly confront me and file a case of defamation😂 against me. I leave the decision of judgement of the character to you my dear readers, though I doubt I can effectively portray that character, my confrontation with the character on a regular basis can nowhere match your judgement of the character’s nature of behaviour. He’s simply a silent killer!

One of my friend who works in a private institution as a teacher is generally very outspoken and bold especially in dealing with her colleagues of whom a few are talented and the rest belonging to the family of traitors whose class I already mentioned in the first paragraph. She has a nice rapport with the students and the students too liked her for her attitude, approach and obviously teaching! She has better organisational skills too which she proved time and again. She was instrumental in introducing and organising many programmes for the all round development of the student community. No matter what, students had the habit of approaching her and share their academic and sometimes personal matters, sometimes even without a solution. When I said involvement, it was inclusive of the students and nobody else. The heads who should have physically involved in the running of the many programmes failed to do that, some pretended as if they morally lend their support, but she was no fool to believe them and never did, even once.

Especially after the conduction of a certain programme (I remember she having confessed to me), one among her colleagues, The Tail(according to her, that’s what he lacks) , after recovering from an illness has slightly changed his views on her which before that was not very impressive. The Tail is more of a lady than a man( not biologically) to my friend. He adorns his position as someone who’s designated, but in effect fails to do the primary functions than the secondary and the least important ones. Whenever scenes of crisis arises, he simply vacates the place with a shameful art.In front of her he praises her and in her absence or just behind her,he ridicules. The expressions with which he does the ridiculing art only suits him and hence no other Male.

Truly speaking he should have permanently remembered her service to the wing and hence to the institution, as not a single soul than her, worked, not even he himself. Acknowledging that, was his primary duty at least when there were times to speak out. But a coward never would use such forums rather he would try to satisfy everybody. Satisfying those under him is a must, provided they deserve it. Power can be used for the best alternatives, dear The Tail. Getting all the things done for no recognition is nowhere in the books of HR, I suppose.

The Tail has a trusted friend in Ms. Loudmouth. Their chemistry really works🤣. Believe me, not a single character escapes from their tortures! When I promised to write for my friend, I also swore her of maintaining a certain decorum while bringing out their original selves.

No one in the world is perfect, we speak about others but when it exceeds the limit of dignity, to demoralise the right, don’t always win hearts. When our misdeeds exceed The Supreme would definitely hit us down. Hitting once is a warning. If that doesn’t become a new page in our lives, that warning can have different shapes. Good, if all of us remember the simple truths of our little lives and REVIVE! To tell you frankly, they have helped her in exhibiting their false identity and she got to know what kind of people actually exist in this WORLD, and prepare herself to deal with such people further in her life.

Spirit vs Soul

 New tenants of my lone body,
 started haunting the sole existence
of my idiotic presence: I loved one of them,
and despised the other, for one I owned
and the other some shape unlike me.
I named mine as she, and the other
he, he tried to cast his shadow
over her matured soul; she,being aware of her
maverick victory got rid of the shadow
which was domineering, sombre, lurking in the dark
corner of her soul's silhouette. 
My abandonment, a cause for his rhythmic retreat,
profoundly validating the ultimate verity of the eternal
existence of the supreme soul, renounced my body,
And I  felt my resilient, free, refined body again to myself.


The mind, ruminating over itself days together,
asked me to be in a relationship with
better humans with better thoughts:the worthy,
the merciful, the much in need, the real,
the genuine. How do I define them,inquired I.
"The ones who would consider you to be their fellow beings,
behold you to have the same feelings as they have,
partake cognitive thoughts and ideas honest,
if they be a confidant, then give a part of thyself
than reckless time, make them feel the warmth of your 
love, care and concern. Shoo away the ones who comes to you
for their benefits when they have time, to satisfy their envious selves.
The ones who would never realise and recognise your abilities
are your enemies."

While she stopped, I retired realising the known definition 
yet again, for the innumerable time.

The Future of Education

Before tossing what could be the possible future of education, better we give another thought to its present. I remember someone telling me very recently that the worst hit sector under the present situational challenge is the hospitality sector. While giving a second and continuous thought to that remark, I felt that the educational sector too is at par with the hospitality sector if that be the case. I have had questions when children irrespective of their performance got promoted to the nth level and everywhere you go, you could see the wrong ones in the right positions. There was a time when only the capable had places above and the careless and incapable had to maintain their position of status quo. In that fear of losing, they always tried to come up to perform adopting their own means.

The present education system has been so degrading that peerless wisdom, the overall ability and performance is not recognised, if there are some good figures on his marks card, then BINGO! Money plays a key role in today’s education. Education is analogous to a flight of stairs. While climbing, if you skip one stair, THUD! You might have seen many advertisements in media about colleges or institutions that is ready to launch students “DIRECTLY TO CLASS 12” . One and two and similar progressions are quintessential to reach twelve. Had they realised it! The idea of promoting the students irrespective of their quality has created a mess everywhere at least in India. Whatever could be the medium of education, unless it enables the student worthy enough to write sentences meaningful and grammatically well constructed, how can we expect them write paragraphs and essays at least in their answer script? The system has never made them walk straight without creeping. We were busy drawing boundaries to limit their thoughts. How many of the them were taught to think?

Some of them even become teachers with the necessary training cleared with a distinction. When they ‘contribute’ to the educational sector, the needy becomes virtually paralysed. Such generations being injected over so many years has upturned the entire system. Our students graduate and post graduate without the necessary academic, communication, and life skills. At least a few of them feel for their positions and try to excel in their own areas of interest. They need to, as the system doesn’t allow them to outwit itself. Along with facts, they are made to stand within the outline drawn by teachers with varying skills. It’s high time some among them should realise what the students need is seriousness in dealing the subject, sincerity without distinction and teachers who have quality.

Teachers who teach literature can certainly go beyond the spelling of the subject😆. Pretension of having mastery or translation expertise to the language they think the students can easily follow, will never have a stake in the minds of students in the long run. Even after having a hold over language and literature, if the teacher lacks seriousness and sincerity, students may not choose them over the best. All these remain limitations only when the students’ judgements are right. For good judgement, they need maturity and reasoning skill which again is the outcome of a good education. To teach, skill and depth in the subject is required, not wasted years of experience. I wonder why they themselves do not realise and analyse this and I wish at least somebody understood this! Students, at least a few, definitely understand better than some do.

With the quick adaptation of online mode of teaching, the only thread that existed between the students and the teacher has lost its sanctity. With educational institutions under a long shut down for fear of suspected spread of the disease, has again risked the imparting of quality based education, though on a base level. Whatever could be the percentage taught through online mode, it will have its implications on an average Indian student. While everyone cries for the adaptation of IT infrastructure, let’s also cry for quality. It’s not the coverage that matters, it’s the real number under coverage that actually matters.

When the present is so, how better could be our future? No, no, I am not against what you call progress. Just that I feel for the generation now and the generation next, which actually makes me feel bitten. Let’s progress with progressive thinking and quality based education. In this process we may have to add and subtract certain things and numerous faces, let us not feel for it. A better future is in store when the ones who are authorised realise this!

The Eruption

Erode, you, my dear most play mates,
Stop hiding in the thick of my blood,
allowing my little self die in the forceful
 under current, sweeping away all my
dearest, subtlest and painful plateaus of love and sorrow.
Dear inmate, the chamber you reside is 
my little home, where I made my mates
sleep, swear I promised to wake them up
when the world sleeps. 
The restless movements you initiate
vibrations, pricking in every inch of 
my mind, the sting inflicting my sane self.
Dear occupant, show yourself to my
mocking mates, come out to fix me up.
Oh!my mind is tired of bearing the weight,
still, I continue to hide it remembering that
every thing has its own time, my time 
has not yet arrived, now it's almost my 
TIME TO PACK UP, from my world of responsibility.
 The inner soul of mine is shattered to such
an extent that it yells for an ERUPTION!

The Denial

The heart, alone and erect without sensing
Followed the path of denial, discarding
emotions in genuine and ephemeral,
felt more in gusto and insensible. Is the heart true?
'They are not true, said the heart. Vows made earlier
to many and one in particular wasn't kept, 
how's it going to be with you, you are no different, 
beauty is the matter of time, what defines you
 is your character, what remains with you is your
attitude, what makes you different is the considerate nature,
you have, the merciful feeling to your counterparts
who more or less are the same. Why is that you
distrust me?'
Leaned with burden, the heart started at me
And I, with a shattered look, confessed,
' Oh, my lone asset, I follow your path
 But the mind of mine, who weeps for
a faithful company tends to follow the other path,
Whom should I support?' Pondering over my tiny mind,
it said, 'Deny everything unreal, what remains with you 
is me in my true sense, beware of the rest.' 

Again, pulling myself up in my cosy emotions,
I smiled, with a faded shade.  


A tiny sapling that sprang out for  the last day's rain
with a dusky green colour, waving hither and thither 
with the breeze,tilted its tiny head to ask me:Hey 
beautiful,shall I reside in your haven?

Flabbergasted and startled and hesitant, I gave
 the little space it needed, with a promise not to tug it away.
Merrily she advanced, swore to make my lone mind gay.
Morning, noon and evening she welcomed me to her heaven.

A heap of mud, handful of water and shaded light
I poured my love, hiding though
spake as if I don't care for her existence
yet going rounds with her, talking and laughing.

Rained further and I wake up to see her
tilting her neck and hands to stretch out
to another friend short and handsome . Waved at me again
to ask for enough space for her comrade.

Hurt and forlorn, I smiled at them
wishing them a grand good life together
right in front of my eyes. 

Understanding the Real Realities

While making an attempt to understand the prime realities underlying human relationships, I arrived at a few conclusions which sound easy though little uneasy it makes us feel. Why not the process start from controlling human anger was my question. Yes, again I am taking you to the same space of your mind where you bury every anxious thoughts of anger, frustration and the consequent stress. To pluck these emotions even before they sprout in the lowest layer of our mind, shall we simply wear a smile? A smile, though artificial reduces the amount of anger, to experts. A smile that used to be at the brink of our lips once, at the moment vanished and vanquished somehow by technology that is immortal. Can’t we get it back?

Getting rid of the anger is through self control. When one look at the brighter side of things, without digging into its dull aspects would help him carry that smile along. The ultimate outcome of an incident may not be pleasing, but a deep analysis would help you find a minimum of a set of favourable aspects. To make the majority aspects favourable, keep the try on with a cool head and a warm mind. Develop the will to control anger, understand the uselessness of anger. A simple negligence to the situations that cause anger would also help one manage the occasion without any shouting.

The approach one develops towards their work or any sort of assignment can be quiet,gentle and loving. I mean, one can avoid haste so that work can be enjoying and satisfying though it could be tiring at times. Grumbling and anger can be kept at a little distance. Forcing oneself to shut their mouth, sealing their lips with a resolution not to react angrily would definitely help one sail through the coarse water. Be a good listener and feel for their problems and pains. Sympathise with them and respect their feelings and emotions presuming yourself to be in their shoes. A kind heart and mild, loving words can steal the attraction of people, I swear.

As far as possible let one try to understand the person at the other end. True understanding comes with the spirit of humility. An understanding heart and the feeling of empathy would make one a human than becoming a silent spectator to the multi situational problems faced by others. A self analysis would benefit one in a number of ways. How much above or below one feel than the other is the parameter which I deployed here to say that anyone can face any unpredictable situation any time. Than showing an angry face, it’s always better if we sympathise and foresee ourselves at that dangerous spot sooner or later.

Knowing oneself better, I mean self-awareness can turn one to a better individual. Acknowledging one’s limitations can always make an individual, conscious and this would help his mind to remind and warn him to take enough precautions to do the assigned task without faults. This would avoid meeting with expected anger dosage.

Accept the truth…if you’re at fault consent with a promise to do it the way the other expected you to have done it. Shouting back with an innocent face and pretentious, curvature d remarks wouldn’t help much. Have integrity in your thoughts and words. Be responsible for what you do and say.With all these management tricks, you can walk a long away alone, being calm and peaceful yet different.

Education: Weary with toil, I haste me to my bed…

As the face of the world is shaping into an unfamiliar one, I wish the newly shaped face has something to tell us about the much needed changes in the arena of education, also. Whatever I am analysing here is specially imaginable from an Indian’s perspective, as there are changes in the system of education and changes in the mode of implementation between the east and the west.

The Vedic education which prevailed in India was far more effective in building a community which easily could find solutions for the problems of themselves, the entire society and also the whole nation. Learning was through experience, solution was for the real life problems. More stress on personality development, anger management, social compatibility, morality, social responsibility, nature conservation, almost all the areas covered by the modern educational experts were taught by the Gurus without much effort and sweat through simple narrations and practical sessions. The practical sessions tested the depth of understanding the pupil carried and how he could successfully apply it to solve a a complicated problem. Bhakthi (devotion) was the key to manage all the hurdles, mental stress. People cross questioned their own actions and the reactions of their actions. Patience was another powerful mantra for success. Managing the difficulties associated with life was considered to be an inevitable elementary skill every human must possess.

Gaining knowledge was never considered a means of attaining economic independence. The range of knowledge one had, defined his status, not money. They didn’t mind to wander for their daily bread if they couldn’t afford it, but they excelled in Vedic and moral studies. Those who couldn’t study, were familiarised with the essentials by the one who possessed immense wisdom. Gurus equalled God and serving him in all the possible manners was considered another way of worshipping and serving Him. Still they were successful, without chasing or racing anyone or anything, without pulling each other’s legs. The latter was out of their curriculum.

Well…we have come far beyond. Modern education has its own modes of functioning now. Sometimes I feel that it has gone beyond our hands. Still chalk and talk mode is popular in India as it is one of the best interactive mode. The teachers find it effective too, they can easily monitor their pupil. Distance education has never been popular in India. Even now, I vouch. Online education too has its own limitations. I was wonder stuck at the feedback given by the most gadget loving students on this particular mode of education. Apart from the connectivity issues, they didn’t find it effective. The bulk of the modern generation are fans of classroom, interactive mode of teaching.

I would request the designers of Indian education to design an educational system which would fit into our framework. One which incorporates activities than theories. Yes, it involves a marathon work, not at all easy. One may have doubts if our youth would fit into the global market, don’t forget, Indian intellectuals have always established themselves in foreign lands. Where else do the students carry so many books to their schools? Where else do they return home with weary faces and tired minds? Where else do the parents and students think only of competitive examinations?

Our education has narrowed down the vision of the community to merit only those who choose only professional courses. Those who could hoard money or make money are successful, as per their definition. Shall we broaden our vision? Learning, to a child or an adolescent is no more a fun. Shall we give them some space so that they can breathe? Let’s define it differently than leaving some among us to mutter the lines of Shakespearean Sonnet:27.